yay!

i got my commputer back last week, almost broke into tears because it was all so new and different. Then as I was trying to get my backup documents, that Harold was oh so nice and saved for me, all organized and into the correct folders...I deleted half of my files. I about died! Luckily Harold still had them saved and was able to put all my "shit" back on the computer. So I have been slowly reloading and confirguring all my stuff so its almost back to normal. I tell ya, that 3 almost 4 weeks with out my computer was rough! But so far so good! =)

My computer fixer hero is on the right....pouting for whatever reason...IDK bc he got his favorite bottle of booze out of it all....lol

its completely official!

And I think this will be the last time I post something about it....But my DARs for ASU says "ALL REQUIREMENTS HAVE BEEN MET"

I have a college degree!! yay! I am going to celebrate!

Christmas this year was relaxing. We don't do many of our old traditions except I have adopted my friend Sami's tradition of watching movies all day...which I did. And slept and played with Samson, Zoe and Chaser. They are who I spent most of my Christmas with. It was nice. =)

I think thats about if for me, I got a long awaited/needed pedicure and manicure from my Christmas $$, so I was a girly girl for the afternoon and I feel so much better!

LOVE is all I got!

Merry Christmas!!!

alll done!

I am graduated!! ASU Alumni! woohoo

im off....

...to my last college class of my undergrad carreer! yay! =)

it hasn't sunk in yet...

....but I am basically finished with school. The only thing I have left is a small in-class writing assignment and I am set to graduate on December 19. I can't even explain how marvelous it feels because I don't think my mind has figured it out yet. I have been going to school for about 20 years...that's a LONG time! Now its out to the real world I go. Wow...amazing.

I want to take the time to THANK EVERYONE who has been there through it all. As with everything in life, there has been many ups and downs. My true friends have stuck it out with me and are still here to this day. I LOVE all of you with my whole heart.

official

Fall 2008 Convocation RSVP - Form Submission - genessa simotti
Morrison School of Management and Agribusiness
Submitted on 12/5/2008
Name:
genessa simotti
Will or Will Not Attend:
will
Number of Guests:
10
Department:
Agribusiness
Level of Degree:
Bachelors


=D

move along...

I love this song! Move Along by the All American Rejects. Its fun!


So, its official, I am coming to the end of my college carrer, well the undergrad part. Its all so surreal. In about 14 days I will be walking across Gammage in a cap and gown. GRADUATING! Jeez can it just be done with!?!? lol I don't even want to walk, but I do at the same time. I found the RSVP thing online and had a hard time commiting to the yes part.

But anyways, I am officially done with 1 of my classes and after Tuesday, I will be done with 2 more. After next Thursday, 2 more and completely done the Tuesday after that. Amazingness!

as time goes by....

...I sit here thinking. My MySpace ticker says I have 16 days left til graduation. From my last entry, you remember I have about 6 days of classes...well 5 now. I was freaking out this morning almost into a panic attack, but as I sat and finished a few assignments, got my group project figured out, the rush of panic subsided and I was able to relax. Only to be devastated with the actions of my friends. Two of them didn't do anything directly, and maybe neither did the one, but I am still hurt by what happened. =( Everything will be fine though I am sure. I think I am going to adopt that as my new motto, No matter what, everything will be ok. Sound good? Lets be positive! =/ teeny tiny bit hard when your heart has alittle crack in it and your friendships are leaking out.

looking forward....

.....I am practically in tears realizing I have 3 full days left of classes....then 3 days of finals...then I am done. I can't believe it; I don't even know how to explain my emotions about it all right now. Am I really going to be done? I am so excited, but so scared at the same time. Is this a little bit of panic? I know no matter what, I am going to be ok within the hands of God.

Deep breath, finish my homework, it will all be ok....breathe breathe breathe.

wellllll

Look at those beautiful Thanksgiving day clouds! I just figured out the coolest thing! which makes my phone even more cool then it was before! I can trasnfer files back and forth!!! YAY!! I have probably been able to do this all along, but never knew how.

I guess I really don't have much to write about, since all I do is homework. And worry about graduation and if I will have enough time/money to do my announcements now. =(

are you ready....

....for graduation...no! I totally have a million things to do, including my homework! Yipes, I spent over 3 hours today just doing the small assignments I need to catch up on. Thank goodness I do still have at lease 3 weeks of classes left to make sure I get it all done. And I still can't believe I have 3 weeks left, then no more school! Starting December 22, I will be a full time employee at SWVO...they made that announcement on Monday, and everyone smiled...which I will take as a good thing since I am hoping they all want me there. I actually do like my job even though sometimes it is hard to get along with people. I just do my job and stay out of trouble. I love the cancer patients and their owners. It is a sad job, but I love knowing I was part of keeping their pet alive those few extra months. It also helps to appreciate how much I love my pets, however don't really want anymore after these ones pass. Maybe one cat, that’s it.

But yeah, that’s about it with me. School, finishing, successfully so I can move onto the next part of my life. I only pray that with my big movement forward, so can my mom and brother. They have been through alot, and I am happy to have gone thru it all with them, however, I am ready to be my own person, to take care of myself. I want them to have their own independence in life. I know they can do it and will always be there to support them, maybe not in the ways they want me to, but I feel in my heart it is important and everything will work out.

Jeff, I haven't really written about him...at least in my online journals, but this man is someone I have known for 9 years now and care about alot. However there has been many circumstances that have kept us apart. Lets just say this man has my heart, and until he proves the opposite, I will wait for him. Now in a few days, weeks, months, or even minutes, I might say different, but its been 9 years, and for me to wait this long something has to be there that is meant to be. Pray, that’s all I can do/say.

What else? Um my pal Cameron went to basic training on Monday, and even though I have known him for 2 year, we don't super talk that often, I still really miss him. It’s funny how people come and go in your life and how much you miss them when they aren't there. I know he will be back in about 8 weeks, but when I think about the big things happening within these next 8 weeks, I want him here for Thanksgiving, graduation, Christmas, New Years. But I am super proud of him and know whatever he does, he will be successful in it and I will always stand by his decisions.

As I write, I find myself thinking just how thankful I am. I seriously get pissed at the most stupid things, and wish I didn't. I wish I can have it all, but am 100% content with what I have. Well that’s a lie, I want to see Jen more often and be a part of her family, I miss her...it’s been a long time since I've seen or even talked to her. Ok so now 99% content with my life, I think I am going to fold my super clean laundry, take my meds and go to bed. G'night all! <3

sicky....

... I don't know if it’s even considered being sick. I am just having some allergic reaction to SOMETHING...I don't know what exactly because my symptoms come and go and aren't directly related to anything I do or eat. But I went the hospital because I wasn't able to breathe well because my chest was super tight and hurting.

Here is my story:
I get there and am sitting in the waiting room for literally 2 minutes before they take me to the back room where I was met by the doctor 5 minutes later. They had me poked with pain meds (even though I wasn't in alot of pain) within 20 minutes and started on a breathing treatment all within the hour. Needless to say, I broke out in the rash I have been dealing with for the past 2 weeks...whatever it was from, we don't know! So I got 2 more shots, both of which still hurts and discharged by 10p. We went and got my 4! Meds filled and I am now back at Mochas house entertaining him by throwing his ball. Over and over and over and over again. But I am tired and I think I am going to take my contacts out and fall asleep until work time tomorrow.

Love everyone!

holy cow....

I graduate in less the 5 weeks....what!?!? 5 weeks....4 weeks and I will have no school anymore!? what? did I just type that....lol yes. Jason, my pastor at church said the same thing...what?!?! it seems like its been forever, but then again not long enough. I really miss Jason. I really miss Elements and the way I used to be plugged into it. I've tried out reaching in church, however unfortunately I don't feel the open hand I used to. I love my church, don't get me wrong, but every time I try to commit myself to helping, I get let down. I don't even know how to explain it all. I don't look to help in order to see what the church has to offer me, but when I want to help but am not welcomed with open arms, it’s hard. As soon as I graduate, I will be putting myself fully into church and serving. Where ever I can.

My birthday is coming up soon, my 25th birthday. I seriously remember when I was younger I never thought I would get to 25. I also remembering the hope and wonder as to what my life would be like. This birthday comes with many hardships, things to be thankful for and things not to be thankful for.

I am thankful for my life and getting to live it everyday by the grace of my one and only GOD who I love with all my heart. Even though I am not so thankful for the way my family acts, I still do love them and am thankful they are here to show me the way I want to be, and through tough love, they will be successful and grow for themselves. I love and am thankful for my horses, because no matter what mood I am in, they ALWAYS make me feel good. Even when ET feels he knows it all and doesn't listen to my directions. But I guess that’s what kids do. lol
I am also very thankful for my friends, who charge me nothing and treat my horses like their own. They are the best people on earth! I don't know what I would do without them. My friends, over the past year, I have really gotten to know who my real friends are. and the ones I want to keep in my life. I have over 150 friends on myspace and facebook combined, but really only have a select few I can count on for anything and everything. Within reason as well. I also won't fight for someone to be in my life. If they want to be, they will. End of story. There are many people that come in and out of our lives; only the true ones will last. And hold onto them bc life is fragile and can be taken away from us at any time. I love sports, I love being competitive. and am thankful for that. NASCAR is almost over for the year, but I have football to replace it for now. I am thankful for school, but even more thankful for it being done in 5 weeks. And I will be passing all my classes! I am thankful for my job and the people there. I can't remember the last time I was so close with the people I work with besides back in the old AZ Equine days. I am thankful for all the opportunities I have every day and am grateful for being able to trust God in helping me with my decisions I make.

Anyways, I think I started this entry with the intentions of stating the fact that my birthday, Lynda’s birthday and Cody's birthday is this week and I have no idea what I want to do. We decided...kind of, to celebrate together, but no one can decide on what to do. Ok, I am going to go ride and find something to eat. Bye for now!

sleepy update

Hi!

So I was readin gmy entry from before, and that was probably the last time I was productivly doing my homework. Now I have a mountain to get thru and 2 tests to study for that are on Thursday. I have gotten back into my bad procrastinating ways. And I am tired! soooo tired! I think I have some sort of virus.... =(

Um I want to type so much, but this isn't as appealing as I always thinks it will be when I login.

okbye

im so productive

So, I do believe that there is such a thing as too busy to function. I seriously have been doing nothing but homework since Sunday. I never could understand when someone said they had alot of homework until now. I seriously haven't ever had this much homework before in my life! But then again, sadly until now, I didn't do my best in school. Which I am totally kicking myself for bc I am a good student and can do my work well. Especially writing...wow the piece of writing I did the other night was AMAZING! too bad my commputer ate it and I couldn't get it back.
anyways, I love my friends, and I have learned who the true ones are... I had a ton of fun with a few of them the other night....end of story! lol

ok I think I am going to go to bed now..
This weekend I am::
watching suzy and mocha
maybe going to the gymkhana
riding at some point
jenns wedding
church...to cry...

I think thats it...

neverending

=( i am completely confused on my project for school...ive tried many different times to figure it out, but can't. i need to go beg the teacher for some help and more time....ima loser! and it makes me really sad!

im surounded by love

As I sit here thinking of what to write, I find myself filled with love for everyone else. Even though I am struggling to get motivated to do a paper that is due tomorrow, I still love everyone else more then myself. Maybe that is my hold up, I love others more. I love GOD with all my heart and know he is near every second of the day, but I still also struggle with the capability to forgive my mom and brother sometimes. Today, I worked a 10 hour day, not to mention the hour drive time to come home to a house I left, unchanged and above all no change in cleanliness. I don’t ask for much, but if I was home all day, and all I had to do it work 20 hours a week, you better believe I would have a clean house as well as dinner made for whoever is working/going to school. That fact hurts my heart deeply, but even thought it hurts, I still love them, find it hard to forget, but usually do end up forgiving. Since forgiving is releasing me from the burden, I never forget. And just typing this brings back so many memories and emotions. What else can I do? I really haven’t a clue.

Anyways, I need to do at least a tiny bit of homework tonight, and then off to bed.

yay weekend!

Ihave soooo much homework to do this weekend! again! gah!

well my test I studied for all weekend wasn't too bad....not surprisingly. I was done in an hour with some people being done in 45 minutes. I only forgot about 2 questions, but other then that, the rest was good. My other test this week was so super easy, I didn't study and I am not worried about it at all.

Gymkhana tomorrow! So I am going to bed, BUT look at what my driver did! mmm hott lol

Greg Biffle isn’t angry with teammate Carl Edwards for starting a 12-car crash at Talladega Superspeedway.

Neither is Matt Kenseth.

Kevin Harvick? Not quite over it.

Witnesses said Edwards and Harvick scuffled Thursday in the Nationwide Series garage at Lowe’s Motor Speedway after Edwards walked into Harvick’s garage stall and the two engaged in a heated argument.

Harvick appeared to try to walk away but, witnesses said, Edwards reached for his shoulder to turn him back around. Harvick then shoved Edwards, who stumbled onto the hood of Harvick’s car, and the two had to be separated.

Witnesses claimed a member of Harvick’s crew had Edwards in a headlock as numerous people tried to separate the two.

Harvick was unavailable for comment.

Edwards didn’t deny the two argued, but wouldn’t discuss the incident.

“The deal with me and Harvick is between me and him and there’s nothing else to talk about,” he said. “I’m not talking about that. That’s just what it is. We know where each other stand and that’s it.”

byebye

so ive been studying....

....for 2 hours...and 2 hours earlier and 4 hours yesterday. I am tired, but will get thru this study guide tonight so I have Monday and part of Tuesday to look over it all in attempt to make sure I know this stuff. Sadly enough, I am ashamed bc this is the most I have ever studied for a test before in my life. It makes me sad bc I have been going to school for so long, and if I wasn't so lazy, I'd be fine in school and probably already graduated. Ima loser. Not anymore! I am going go give my all to the rest of the semester and go out with a bang!

I also don't understand how people can have such tunnel vision. I know I am not the center of peoples world, but I do think I deserve enough courtesy and respect to not have to be treated like I have been and am currently being treated. I am no a door mat and I will not put up with it anymore. I believe people are put into my life for a reason, however I am not going to fight/beg for them to be there. If they are truely meant to be my friend, they will be. Which is why I think I am able to close a few brief chapters in my life, the first, which I never ever would have imagined would have happened. I love everyone so deeply that it hurts me just as deeply to be forgotten about or ignored. I don't care if you mean to do it or not, be alittle more considerate and sensitive to other peoples feelings. Jeezzz

Ok back to studying I go!

my friend josh is sooo funny!

house sitting....

I'm sitting here with all my studying thoughts running through my head wondering if I will ever be able to organize everything enough to do well on my test on Tuesday.....
Its been nice so far being out here in queen creek only a stones throw from my horses, but it gives me even more of a desire to live closer to them. tonight, if i go ride again, i am going to take down the number for the place across the street and call to get more information. =D maybe someone is telling me something....

well that's enough of a break for me, I'm going back to studying...i need to find/make some flash cards.

See ya!

#2....meh

So, as much as I feel like crap after skipping class; I did it again tonight. I just don't see the point in sitting in class editing something I can do in the writing center. Plus, she is just kinda boring since she sits up front and reads to us in a mono-tone way. gah. Its ALL almost over! Thank goodness....78 days left! =D

welcome!

I'm finally here! lol, I've been writing on easyjournal, but that isn't as user friendly as this one seems to be, so I am gonna start here.

Happy readings! If I get on here ever...lol

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