I Am Back!

Well funny thing is at night, I watch HSN.... I have almost bought a few things...but then I think of the show, Hoarders...and freak myself out that I am going to turn into one of those people on there. I already keep ALOT of things I don't really need/haven't touched in ages, but it is hard for me to get rid of. Over the next few days/week, I am going to get my room completely cleaned out and re-organized.

Another funny thing is that I have been thinking of not only starting my life over, but maybe in a new town/state. I have lived in AZ my WHOLE life, this little area (Mesa, Gilbert, Chandler) has been my life for the past 27 years. Is God telling me it is time to leave? I honestly feel I have missed out on something and something/someone is telling me to go find it.... Is that possible??

I have also been trying to decide what gym to join. Part of me says, get it together, ride my bike, do my few work out videos (Levi even has Netflix so I can probably get any work out video on there) But the other part of me thinks/says I need to get away from home and get my butt in gear and be serious about working out/getting healthy. I am tired of being overweight. And I don't want to have medical problems later in life. What should I do?? Bike/home workout videos or gym membership.

Ok I have a few things I want to type more about but I am super tired and sore from sitting on my bed playing with my new computer..

GOOD NIGHT!

25 days later...

....Well my computer took a crap...right when I said I would start writting more...

Nothing has really happened since last post. I got my CVT letter and sent off my $50 for my certificate, so that should be here soon.
I can't wait til July, bc even though I have been saying it for years, I am really going to try to go to Texas to see Jen! yes Jen! I am going to come!! I am saving my $$ right now!!

Its freakin cold in glenns room...so I am going to get off here and go find something to eat...write more later!

Happy New Year!!

Well, its been a while, but part of the new year...I want to start writing again. I enjoy looking back and seeing what I was feeling/doing at any point in time in my life!

First:
I passed my CVT test, after failing the first time, I wasn't sure if I wanted to attempt to take it again (even thought it was my last chance) but I bit the bullet and paid another $300 and took it on December 9...and PASSED! I haven't gotten the final letter, but the computer gave me a pass, so all is good!
Second:
I finished 5th overall in my gymkhana placing. I won super cute giraffe print Pro Choice SMB and bell boots! I love them!!! I also got a new breast collar, a barrel rein, another $25 gift certificate and a participation t-shirt (neon pink letters!)
Third:
I am no longer with Dan, not even friends. There was alot of issues between us, neither (more so Dan I think) wanted to change. We just weren't right for each other. We were in different places in life, and even though I partly settled (not in a bad way) I just couldn't lie to myself anymore. And all my thoughts and feelings have been confirmed, bc as I am willing to compromise, he isn't...so no more Dan. I have learned alot as to what I want and have become a better/stronger person! But it is hard as sometimes my heart tells me one thing while my brain tells me another (which is what I should listen to) I am getting better every day. I can honestly say this is a man I loved. At one point I felt love back, but not anymore. C'est la vie!! :(
Fourth (part of first):
I have a good job now, 40 hours a week, bonuses, medical coverage, and for the most part a pretty cool group of people to work with. Bad thing, its about 14 miles away from home. But I think a new car is in my future. Which leads to....
Fifth:
My car.... 92 honda accord 248k miles.... shes gonna die eventually....I don't know when (just got it fixed again) so I am saving my $$ (mostly SK $) to buy a new one. I'd like to get as much money to put down as my credit isn't so great and I don't want a huge payment. Something will come up hopefully so I don't have to stress out every time I drive my car somewhere.
Sixth:
Puck died, Roz died, Jiminy died, Xena died...this was a rough year (I think Puck died in 09) but even still, ROUGH year!! But I got a new kitten "Cricket" a little girl finally...
My mom got a Chihuahua "Little Girl" we were supposed to be fostering her, but every time I mention finding her a home, my mom gets super sad and isn't sure about it. So I think we have a new little yappy lap dog who is a stage 100000 clinger...lol

My goals for 2011:

1. ride my bike at least every other day/or do some form of exercise (even if it is walking to the mail box)
2. don't eat out, mostly fast food as often and make breakfast every morning
3. let go of things I can't control, we are never fully in control, but if I learned anything from my relationship from Dan, is to never let someone else control how I feel or my attitude. Life is short and you shouldn't settle. I have a few hang ups I need to let go of, but time heals and everything happens for a reason.
4. I'd like to get back into going to church too, that kinda fell to the way-side bc of Dan.

I think that is a good finish to 2010 and start to 2011!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!